Wake up in the morning after 10 hours sleeping with some rays of this Queensland sun; the wind is noisy outside and you can hear it between the brunches of the trees, blowing so strong and powerful. Even if I don't know why, this wind's reminiscing of a particular borough of one of my favourite city San Francisco. Yes I know, I'm living in Australia, I've been here for almost 8 months, I'm planning to settle here or at least to try to do it. First of all I'm gonna finish these 88 days in the farm in order to get my second Visa, then I'll go back to Italy, probably in the middle of December and finally I'll come back overseas, I still don't know where. Every day I change my mind, it's not very easy to plan your life for the future, especially when you are alone and you feel free to do whatever you want. The only thing which I'm really sure about is represented by the fact that this experience, this gap year in Australia's been worthwhile, I'm glad that I made the drastic decision to leave everything behind me and set off for a new life abroad.
The U.S. are still going around in my mind, reminiscing the last (it was also the first) trip I had more then two years ago. A lot of memories are stuck inside me and they're gonna stay there a long time. I want to make an effort, again, to make my way towards America; I'm gonna do it, soon or later, to continue this australian life I'm enjoying now.
But I'm in Australia at the moment. And I wanna figure out how to extrapolate the maximum which this Country has to offer. Once again I've pictured how it would be going back to Italy now, to start all over again in my own country; and once again I realized that it's not the right moment to do that. For sure, as I mentioned before, during the Christmas period I'll be there to enjoy the festivities with my family, but then my life will be here. I can't imagine living in Italy anymore, at least not in the close future. This is the place where I'm gonna stay, I'm gonna live. Here or in U.S. but not in Italy for sure.
It's really painful and it's a hard decision, because all my friends, my parents, my family are still there, but I feel that now I should do something different, I need to live this part of my life as I've never done before. Even if I'm doing menial jobs, even if my skillset and my expertise would allow me to look for, and probably find something better, I don't care; it's much more important to complete little tasks in my stride and complete them in order to reach a higher goal. I feel that I have to enjoy this life here in Australia, but I need also to research something else, I don't have just to have fun and then come back to my Country, as most of the people who come here usually do. I'm here for that, but above all for more. Far more. And it would be a pity to waste this time of my life without trying to attain a high and really worthy goal then I still can't figure out with simple words but which is becoming clear in my mind.
But I'm in Australia at the moment. And I wanna figure out how to extrapolate the maximum which this Country has to offer. Once again I've pictured how it would be going back to Italy now, to start all over again in my own country; and once again I realized that it's not the right moment to do that. For sure, as I mentioned before, during the Christmas period I'll be there to enjoy the festivities with my family, but then my life will be here. I can't imagine living in Italy anymore, at least not in the close future. This is the place where I'm gonna stay, I'm gonna live. Here or in U.S. but not in Italy for sure.
It's really painful and it's a hard decision, because all my friends, my parents, my family are still there, but I feel that now I should do something different, I need to live this part of my life as I've never done before. Even if I'm doing menial jobs, even if my skillset and my expertise would allow me to look for, and probably find something better, I don't care; it's much more important to complete little tasks in my stride and complete them in order to reach a higher goal. I feel that I have to enjoy this life here in Australia, but I need also to research something else, I don't have just to have fun and then come back to my Country, as most of the people who come here usually do. I'm here for that, but above all for more. Far more. And it would be a pity to waste this time of my life without trying to attain a high and really worthy goal then I still can't figure out with simple words but which is becoming clear in my mind.
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