7 - The future's coming

Yep, I believe I'm on the right path. I have been asking me if I'm doing the right things to attain my achievements, if I feel that I'm doing what I should do to achieve my goals. In the book that I'm reading (Psycho cybernetics ndr) has been explained how to act to obtain our accomplishments; as far as I read, it seems that a self machine exists inside of us and it's the main actor which allows us to live our daylife in order to achieve the goals that we've been set.

My main accomplishment consists of settle down here, in Australia. At the same time, I'd really like to improve my english as much as I can because if I want to live overseas, the language (and I mean a good comprehension and a very high quality of your speaking) is one of the requirements that you should have, maybe the most important.

Conscious of mine shortcomings, everyday I force myself in order to raise my english level making simple but constant efforts; all day I avoid italian people, even if I come across some of them who wants just some tourist informations; I listen careful, or I'd say I eavesdrop, every conversation between native speakers; I read english books and magazines and I watch english movies; I try to gather as much informations as I can from the surrounding world. Some days I feel clumsy, other days bold because learning another language, completely different from yours, it's very difficult and sometimes could be frustrating.

In the book "Psyco-cybernetic" the writer says that if you want to pursuit an accomplishment, neither you shouldn't push yourself too much nor make too many efforts because both could be controproductive.
Conversely, what I'm doing would seem exactly the opposite, according to the book. Instead of setting out my final objective without pushing myself, everyday I've been trying to study and to pretend the best from myself. So, why do I believe that I'm on the right path given that, apparentely, I'm doing what I shouldn't do?

The big issue where I'm involved into is settle down in Australia. Unlike the first period after I came here, when I was really pushing myself to find a job and improve my english quickly (in order to hold the right features to be a good Civil Engineer in Australia), now I'm living my daily life without drawing upon too much energy from myself, but I'm trying to be more carefree . Briefly, it means that I enjoy the days, I get every sensation that I can feel during my running, during my work and while I'm with my friends; I'm living my life here conscious that my final accomplishment is represented by a future life in Australia. I'm really focused on my final achievement but, at the same time, I'm avoiding to do attempts to attain it as soon as possible. My self-machine's been working for me and it's been steering me to the finish line. If I'll think that I'll go out from the right path, I'll make some corrections to bring back the rudder along the right way.

 

Finally, It's hard to explain why I'm on the correct path. There's something inside of myself that it's been telling me that I've been doing what exactly I should do to attain my goals. I'd say that is my ego or probably my mind. Hopefully I'll be able to figure it out soon but now is more important to be on my way to achieve my main goal.

 

6 - Engineering..and something else - part 2

I've already read 5 chapter of my book, the same which, hopefully, will help me to understand and develop a new image of myself. As I've written in the last post, at the get go I was such skeptic that I never expected to feel completely plunge in the reading like a I'm.

Chapter by chapter, I'm becoming more involved in the concepts and in the ideas brought out by the writer. It's something new for me because, as I mentioned in the last post, I've ever believed in physics and math, the two pillars where I built my knowledge and my beliefs on. Subjects as psycology and philosphy, or concepts as development of ourself have never been considered in my thoughts.

But maybe I'm changing my mind. I don't have the whole picture yet, however this book and my new life overseas (concerning even the choices that brought me here) are showing me other aspects and characteristics of me and my life that I didn't know. It's like I've been unhooked from my old life and someone's dropped me in a new world. Everything surrounding me it's different, it ain't necesseraly worse, but is still about to discover it.

 

However, there's some concepts which aren't very clear to me, at least they are conceptually differents from my way of thinking. Foremost, the writer says that if you wanna achieve your goal, you need to set it out and then leave that your self machine works for you. (The self machine, in the proposal of the author, is a mechanism placed inside each of us that allows to reach our achievements, overcoming all the difficulties that we can find along our way. The mechanism itself needs, at the same time, something to works, as the cars need petrol to go.)

It seems like if I decided to set an achievement, perhaps to obtain a good english certification, and I didn't do anything to achieve it. It sounds quite strange. I should study, make some efforts and attempts to improve my learning, but, if I followed the theory which is behind the book, I should stay on my bed looking at the wall and everything will be fine. In fact, I'll be able to attain my achievement, 'cause it will be someone (the self machine) that it will steer me toward my finish line.

 

Apparently, there's something wrong. The main meaning of the book must be disconnected from the example as I wrote above. I believe that the intentions of the autor were inherent somewhat more "spiritual", not strictly correlated with practical objects or desires. In a nutshell, you need to dwell upon, think about your big achievements that you wanna reach in your life and pursue them without efforts, but thinking in a positive way and feeding your selfmachine with your beliefs, your dreams and your optimism. You need to forget the dowside of the things, your weaknesses and your inadequacies; moreover, don't try to push yourself toward the goal, because could prevent you to attain your goal itself.

 

Well, I've just described what the writer wrote in his book that rappresents his thought, but what's mine? What are my goal and my accomplishments?Am I doing the right things to achieve them? Am I on the right way?